I find myself slipping in and out of depressed ruts. Mikes long hours at the hospital plus constant studying means the only time I see him (literally) is eating dinner and sleeping.
I have a friend here whose not a student but with a 8 month old baby I never see her.
So I'm lonely. I miss home. I miss having a car so I can leave the apartment and I miss working.
So in my funk I try and do different things at the gym, my one escape where I feel like I'm apart of something and with people!
So I go to yoga a couple times a week and I added a Barre class and a Pilates. By summer I should have a six pack haha!
I still run! But city blocks and dodging horrible Michigan drivers as I cross intersections is not ideal.
These last few days I've been really bummed. The weather is getting warmer and normally I'd be busy at work, doing at least 2-3 races a month and drinking beer and bbqing with my friends. But instead I'm here. Alone. Inside. Stout my pug the only friend I really have.
So I started my usual route and I just didn't have it in me emotionally. I've noticed when I'm really bummed that running does more harm to me. But how can that be?! You love running!! Yes I do. But when I run my face is tight, serious. Like this:
You know that face!
You look miserable! Shoulders tight, arms tight, hip flexors getting tighter.
I just didn't want to be in that tense state pounding pavement.
I naturally carrying all my stress in my body I have the tightest shoulders, back, hips, legs you've ever met.
And I just didn't want to be serious. I've been serious lately, no smiling, no laughing.
So I went to the gym and did the thing I hated because I suck at it. I'm WAY out of my comfort zone. ZUMBA
A class that you have to go to regularly to know the routines, like any. And I don't go to Zumba. To me it's just silly. And that's why I went, I knew id be laughing at myself as they are going left, I'm going right, i can't Samba or do odd hip hop dancing. I'm kinda a stick in the mud! I avoid all bars that have dancing I also sit at the table during weddings and NOT dance! Even at my relatives ones.
But, I needed it and I'm glad I went.
If you are depressed do this class ESPECIALLY if you don't dance.
You will laugh! Smile at yourself being silly!
And it was fun to be apart of a loud group that cheers, sings along, clap...you know these people are as into Zumba as you are running and it's refreshing to see that.